On Being a Gleek and Coming Out
Watching the hilarious new comedy Glee brings back a lot of memories about high school.
Sadly, however, it brings back horrible memories of very tumultuous times.
I seriously hated high school. I was, obviously, one of those Kurt Hummel types but not quite exactly. Unlike Kurt Hummel, I was not a trendy fashionista back in high school. I think the trendiest piece of fashion I owned was a pair of Tretorn shoes.
And unlike Kurt Hummel, I was not part of Glee Club. I remember wanting so badly to be part of Glee because almost everyone who was friendly to me was part of it. But, alas I could not sing. I remember auditioning with Cindy Lauper’s Time After Time in a capella, cutting short the chorus and storming out of the room in tears because I sucked big time.
The past is past and I have moved on but every now and then I look back and regret that I hated life in high school so much, primarily because I was not out. I was too afraid to come out. I was too afraid to be true to myself. In last week’s episode of Glee, unitard-clad Kurt Hummel was brave and honest enough to come out to his dad who turned out to be totally accepting and supportive. It was a sweet coming out scene that, I guess, I would never have with my own dad. I’m sure my dad knew and I’m sure he would have been totally accepting and supportive, too. Probably, a dramatic coming out scene would not have been necessary. So I guess I shouldn’t really dwell in the past anymore. Life is too short for regrets.
In hindsight, I may just be bitter about high school because I never got laid back then.
Glee airs Wednesday nights on Fox.